Well, today went to church for Sunday service. Finally Jared managed to finish off all 5 songs for English service. It was really good. I believe he would be able to make it when the new team roster comes out in Aug.

Today's sermon was on emotional expect of a mature Christian. Seriously right on point! I was so emotionally affected for the past one month, Just couldn't get over this long relationship. Everytime I see her I will recall the past.

Though I managed my emotions well on the outside and did not misbehave myself, it's like heavy storm on inside of me actually.

Finally I found the courage to face it and deal with this emotion, I know I cannot let it grow out of control. I have to meet her and settle it, if I have to go away from her for a while I guess I have no choice this time but to do it.

Oh God, please be with me through this. I really need You to walk through this with me. All I commit to You again!